Tracing Life's Path

9th July 2004.

Life ! What to say about it. Everyone defines it in his own manner. Sometimes its the worst of things to lead .

Sometimes the best of moments spun together create a beautiful picture . Sometimes its bed of roses while sometimes thorns do prick us.

Everyday ends with a night and every night begins with a fresh day. But everyday the sun has a special message for each one of us. On days when we are able to follow it that day becomes special for us and we mark that day as a red letter day in our lives.

So whats life actually ? A journey ? A destination ? Dont know. But if its a journey with no fixed destination where do we stop ? Fixed destination is something that is known before hand so we can move towards it easily. Then why do we sometimes find ourselves thinking hours about the meaning of our lives. 

So my friends ultimately I have come up to only one conclusion ie Life is a journey with a destination which needs to be discovered by us. Its known to us. 

Life always gives us a hint towards it but never clearly specifies it. So we always move a little towards it . Sometimes we get drifted alongwith the flow here and there but step by step we do move further.

Failing in a cause demoralizes us but that is always meant to teach us something better something worthwhile for the future.

Therefore its not easy to predict anything but the only way to move ahead is to follow your heart and dreams.

Memories.

3rd July 2004.

Somewhere within my heart.
I feel myself apart.
Apart from home.
Feeling very lone.

Thinking of the past.
Thinking of those friends.
With whom i grew up.
And ultimately left them apart.

Thinking of the start
Coming now to the end.
By any means its impossible
To forget her as a friend.

The memories keep reminding.
Reminding of times spent together.
Which hurts like hell.
But anyways my heart will have to find a place to dwell.

Highway

4th March 2004.

Driving down the highway.
Driving miles away.
Miles away from home.
Miles away from play.

Recollecting Memories.
Recollecting Glory.
When I would be happy.
As well as bubbly.

Yet, the times have passed.
Going down memory lane.
Now life is different.
As well as a lot has changed.

As we progress further.
Tensions are surmounting.
But my only prayer is that everything be fine.
This is just a dark phase which will evaporate after a while.

Anomalies .

Anomalies .

Life itself is the biggest anomaly :)

Its been years that I penned down something. Don't know the free flow in writing which was there earlier seems to be evading slowly. Nowadays, I have stopped thinking about anything. Just taking life as each day passes. Trying to live each day as nicely as I can .

You know what I have learned certain things. No situation and circumstance in life is such that we cant manage.
In fact when we fight them , we fight our fears outright and emerge a stronger person.

That in turn inculcates a new zeal and freshness in life. It helps to grow and look forward.

Do you remember how my world came crashing down some one and a half year back. It was like I have met with such an accident that i will never be able to get up and walk. Felt like literal accident would have been better than suffer the mental agony.

Still remember how i went to Chennai with no aim and direction . dint know what was going on. Dint know whats my status .

Lost all my emotions for anyone for that matter. Just dint know whether human is for humanity , emotions. What should I do next ? Just concentrated on the work at hand. Did my best to focus my energy on the work at hand.

Now that chapter of life is closed as well. Left Chennai and landed in Mumbai. New Branding, New domain, New Job Role. Everything renewed :). Just that I could renew myself as well ...

Its been nearly 3 months now that I am in this organization. Things are settling down slowly.

Met one of my close friends. Somehow i realized that there is an emptiness and vacuum in my life which cannot be filled . I am happy with everything. But the warm clasping of hands of a stranger and trusting him completely is something which no wealth in the world can buy. It just makes you complete. It gives you peace within that you are precious still..

The last weekend has simply been two amazing days of my life. I know life will have much more better and peaceful days . But no worries even if it does not , i can always relive the warmth of these days in my memories. As they say, no matter how short it is but be happy that you have lived it most happily.


Signing off. As I said , its just the start of my writing process again. Someone did tell me that write about not being able to write . write about the mental block, missing emotion, emptiness and the void inspiration. write about the fear and the happiness. Write about peace and war. Write about anything under the sun which your heart and soul likes or hates . But do not procrastinate :) . Start somewhere . Start Again. Start fresh .



On Shivaratri day hence wishing myself as well as anyone reading this a Happy Mahashivaratri.

Phoenix !!

Date 30.07.2004

Phoenix

Arising from dust, Buried in dust.
The outer is all but lust.
Where fulfilling obligations of life
Seems a must.

We run after it with such gust.
And much after acheiving nothing.
Fills us with disgust.


Losing all trust .
So much covered by lust.
The mind when wiped of all rust
An outlet is needed to burst.

The soul then emerges out .
Leaving the body in dust.
Entering again another being.
Who has risen from dust.


 

Life !!!

Life


A long way to go .
Still to cover more.
And more and more.
Don't know what's the goal.
But still to cover more.

Met people on the way.
Gave them directions.
Guided them sometimes.
Depressed them sometimes.
But mind you, the later
Was not the way one wants.
But still taught us lessons
To go beyond that.

Past is past , present is there.
So the future does not know .
What it holds there.
So, move on further till you reach there.
Because life is short and deeds are many .
Make something worthwhile of it .
Till you reach your ultimate destiny .

Creation

Date:-  27.11.2003

निर्माता

सपने है मेरे कुछ नन्हे कुछ प्यारे
उनको पूरा करना है मन में है ठाणे .
सहीं रास्तों को हम जल्द ही पहचाने
वरना मेरे सपने हो जाओंगे बेगाने .


रास्ते की ठोकरों को हम गए हटाने
अपने लिए अपना मार्ग बनाने
सहीं रास्तों को हम जल्द ही पहचाने
वरना मेरे सपने हो जाओंगे बेगाने .

कठिनाइयों को सफलता की सीधी हम माने
ठोकरों को उसका ही हिस्सा हम माने
सहीं रास्तों को हम जल्द ही पहचाने
वरना मेरे सपने हो जाओंगे बेगाने .

दीपक की रौशनी की मेहेत्ता हम जाने
काम आये घोर अँधेरे में रौशनी फैलाने .
सहीं रास्तों को हम जल्द ही पहचाने
वरना मेरे सपने हो जाओंगे बेगाने .

बैगानो सपना का कोई अर्थ नहीं होता
इससे जीवन नीरर्थ होता है
निरर्थ  जीवन व्यापन करना कोई नहीं चाहता
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